sick of being sick

I haven't been sick in about 2 years. Worse than that, I haven't taken a day off from work for feeling sick. I only took a personal day once since I had this job. So why do I feel so guilty? I think I am the kind of person who has an insane hard work ethic to where I feel guilty and take things so hard when I am not there in the office. I recently found out that I will not be changing locations at work, which means that I will have more time to focus on youtube and blogging, and the things that make me happy. I love my job so much, but I also love youtube and blogging and writing. I am torn between the life I would love to have and the life that is "safe". I am very blessed and thankful to have a job during these rough times. I am also thankful that I have a loving girlfriend and a nice apartment home. I also have a one year old car and have very little credit card debt. I really don't have anything to complain about. SO I am sitting here with a fever, barely able to speak, and a cough that is awful. My whole body aches, and all I can think about it how bad I feel about having to call in sick to work 2 days in a row. Even my own doctor told me that it is good to have a personal "mental health" day. But I can't seem to get my mind to stop focusing on the stress and guilt and just RELAX. It is going to be hard for me to heal fully when I can't stop thinking. Does anyone else deal with this? I am curious to know. xoxo gleamogirljoelle

ipsy bag sucks

I guess you could say that the title says it all. I was, once again, not happy with the ipsy bag. I had it back when it first came out and was called "myglam". After seeing a few videos about the bag, I thought that I should resubscribe, and see if I could get in on the good bags. I was wrong. Last month's bag I was allergic to one product (ok...so that isn't their fault)and the rest of the things were just OK. I loved the Mica get liner. So I guess 1 out of 5 products was good. For $10, why not. I got my March bag today and WTF?! First off I get a face mister spray that made me sneeze. Then I get too miniature eye shadows that are from Yabi that are basically one use only. And then a little magnetic pallet that the mini yabi shadows go in. And lastly, a pack of makeup remover wipes. I am hesitant about trying the wipes due to my allergies. The bag itself it totally cute with anchors on it. Again, 1 out of 5 products are good. Part of me wants to hit "unsubscribe" now, but I have this feeling that the second I do, the April bag will be better. Ugh. Overall, if I had to rate this bag, 1 out of 5 stars. I will keep you all updated with the contents of the bags in the future. For now, I can spare the $10 a month...but we will see. xoxo gleamogirljoelle

I died...Rachel Zoe love.

So I bought season 1 of the Rachel Zoe Project on DVD. I started watching it this morning, and lets just say that it has renewed my love for fashion. I am happily enjoying my day off in my pjs watching this show and dreaming about designers. This will probably lead to a LOT of pinning on pinterest LOL. If you aren't already following me on pinterest, be sure to do so (gleamogirljoelle) When I first started out in college in Fashion Design & Merchandising, I dreamed of being a stylist. I love the idea of having a client with a specific style, and going out and finding the amazing pieces to put together and make a WOW. Rachel Zoe has my dream job. Someday I will try and get closer to my dream, but for now...I will divulge in watching it on TV, reading it in magazines, and window shopping. xoxo gleamogirljoelle

It's Time...

I often forget how easy and how much fun it is to write a blog. I write for my company's blog, and I quite enjoy it. I need to get back into the habit of writing on this blog. Anywho... I am moving. Again. I feel like I am never really settled in one place. It's sad really. I have been moving around my whole life, so I am kind of used to it. This time, I am doing something different. I am moving in with my girlfriend. I am nervous because, well, I am a slob. My current apartment, which I visit all of once every couple of weeks, is a disaster. Even when I was here all the time, I was messy. I am scared that she is going to realize that I am a huge crazy mess, and she will dump me, kick me out, and I will be homeless. The truth is, I have never been sure about something in my entire life. I am madly in love with this woman, and I want nothing more than to be with her 24/7. This move is going to be life changing, literally. I am willing to change my habits to make things work. So on a fun note, I am excited about purging out all the junk that I own. Donating a LOT of clothes, jewelry, purses, shoes, etc., to Goodwill. I am going to get the filming area/closet/makeup area I have always dreamed of. I will be saving a bunch of money, so I will be able to pay off my credit cards and then eventually get some new furniture from Ikea. Yay. Shopping makes me happy. I am also stoked about organizing for 2013. I have been reading a lot of blogs, pinterest, etc. about organization. There are a lot of cheap ways to store stuff that I am happy to be executing in my own little way. Christmas is gone and over, and I am feeling the wrath of debt...ugh credit cards. Take my advice, don't ever get one. Ever. On the plus side, I got some good loot. And I have a ton of gift cards I cant wait to spend...especially my $100 worth of Starbucks cards. mmm frappucinos! Oh, and I have started playing The Sims 3 again. Yeah, I broke down and bought it at Best Buy the other night. Along with the Katy Perry expansion pack. Now I am obsessed. Again. Can't stop thinking about playing it. I worry myself. However, playing the sims prevents me from spending money, ergo, The Sims is good. Yeah I guess that is it for this little update. Hope all of you readers are well. I will be attempting to post more stuff regularly. xoxo gleamogirljoelle

what is my dream?

The other night I was having a conversation with my friend about what I want to ultimately do with my life. I have always been a big dreamer. I have dreamed of fame and fortune and celebrity. But when it comes down to it, I need to start the process and figure out "what am I going to do to become famous?" I have always had a passion for writing. I used to write short stories and "screen plays" as a middle schooler, but as an adult, I need to either do it more seriously, or try something else. I get such a joy out of making youtube videos, and I never want to stop. It is my form of therapy-talking to the camera/audience as a third party, and just being myself fully. it has helped me out so much with some of my anxiety issues. And it is the 21st century version of writing in a paper journal with pens. I wanted to take some time to thank everyone who has stood by me throughout my life. New friends, family, and most importantly, my fans. The people whom I have never met face to face, but you all have stuck by me and continued to watch my videos, and it means more to me than you will ever know. xoxo. gleamogirljoelle

I'm feeling a bit inspired

I've been watching the shows "Face Off" and "Hot Set" and it makes me want to play around with color and decorating... But on a more different note, now that it is Fall, and I have my hot ombre hair, I have been on this cat eye liner and dark lipstick kick. I have fallen in love with the Tarte Lipsurgence matte lip pencil in "Envy". There is something about how beautiful I feel when I wear it.

That's pretty much all I have to say for now. xoxo. gleamogirljoelle

1...2...3...it's Britney Bitch! Last night was the latest gLee episode, which happened to be ANOTHER Britney Spears episode. (Conveniently right after X Factor too) I really liked this episode MUCH more than the other gLee Britney episode. All of the ways that they changed the original Brit songs and made them new was really why I liked it so much. I kind of didn't really like the way that they made Britney S. Pierce's character...but that's not as important. To me, the music is the most important part of the show, not necessarily the story line. I also want to point out that the new girl, Marly, is my FAVORITE character so far this season. She sings a lot like me. Same range, same tone. And I really cant stand Rachel, so this new girl is quite refreshing. Speaking of David Schwimmer, her story line is really getting boring. But I LOVE that Kate Hudson is in the show now. She makes everything so much more exciting with the whole NY story. But most importantly- WHERE IS MERCEDES????! I like this U'Nique chick, but I miss Mercedes. Is she permenantly gone? Where is Finn? Can we see him singing from the trenches in Iraq please?? And Santana...are they going to write her out of the show entirely? I miss her singing. And Puck looks older than Mr. Shu...which is probably why he isn't a regular anymore. I am going to leave you with a youTube video of my favorite song from last night. The way this song was done was phenomenal. **I do not own the rights to this video.** xoxo gleamogirljoelle